heyyy, today's October 1st, my grandma's birthday (: teehee. Lol. I didn't wish her yet, cause when i woke up she was in the bathroom so i went up. XD Later when i go down to eat lah.

yesterday was fine, i guess. idk. i couldn't go online because my wonderful dad was at home, babi. so couldn't check if khairi was on9 or if he didn't go school. which he didn't. cause beatrice told me at school. lmao. oh well, whatever.

haiz. for some reason, i'm not happy. i mean, i can't smile anymore. i mean, i can, but then it always last for like 5 secs then here comes my frown again. even if i laugh like gila2, after a few seconds the frown comes back. gosh, i just don't know. i mean, im being my old-sad-lifeless self again. i'm acting like how i was acting before khairi came into my life. lol, yes he did change my life XD anyways, yeah. i do not know why i am not happy. and like, i feel so alone like GAH. idk. i.just.don't.know.
i wanna change, i hate being like this. i want to feel happy, but i can't even find the CAUSE of my unhappyness. gahh. whatever man.

as time goes by im sure i'll be fine again, right? (:
think positive! yeah :D
yeah. okay. so i wanna go now,i wanna clear my mind and think of something else.

<3

p/s: HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMA (: