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OH MY GOD.
everything is so screwed. GAH.

my mum made me promise not to talk to older boys. i can't even have normal friends? wtf? why are you even all so happy happy?! im like dying over here and you're all OH YAY WEEEEEE?! OMG GAHHHHHH. urgh. you just don't understand. GAH. sister also. urgh. so what, i can only have friends same age as me only? like waddahell?!?!?!?!??!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH EFF YOU ALL LAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MUTHAEFFINGGOD ISH ARGH URGH ARGH. FUCKING SUCK LAH.

YOU DONT EVEN FUCKING KNOW HOW IT FEELS WTF URGH YOU DONT EVEN CARE HOW I FEEL ABOUT THIS ARGH I HATE YOU! I AM LIKE TORNED APART AND YOU JUST KEEP GOING ON AND ON ABOUT STUFFS AND KEEP MENTIONING KHAIRI WHEN YOU SAID I CANT TALK TO HIM ANYMORE. SO WHY MUST YOU KEEP MENTIONING HIM IN WHATEVER I SAY?! WHATEVER I HAVE ALSO SURE MENTION KHAIRI'S NAME. LIKE WHAT. THE. FUCK. EVERYTHING ALSO ALWAYS SAY SOMETHING ABOUT ME OR KHAIRI. GOSH! WTF!!!!!!!!! CAN YOU JUST LIKE, DROP IT?! ALREADY I CANT SEE HIM, CONTACT HIM OR EVEN FRIENDS WITH HIM AND YOU ALWAYS MENTION HIM!!!!!!!!!!! AND WHEN I LIKE DONT SMILE YOU GO, AWW WHY NOT HAPPY. WTF! WHAT DO YOU EXPECT! I CANT CONTACT THE GUY I LIKE OR EVEN LOVE AT ALL! AND YOU WANT ME TO BE HAPPY?! WHAT THE SHIT!!!! PUKIMAK LAH. YOU DONT EVEN FUCKING KNOW HOW HE MAKES ME FEEL! HE MAKES ME HAPPY! WITHOUT HIM IM NOT HAPPY AT ALL! ARGHHHH!!!! HE LISTENS WHEN I TELL STUFFS THAT'S BOTHERING THE SHIT OUT OF ME. I SHARE MY FUCKING PROBLEMS WITH HIM. HE'S ALWAYS THERE FOR ME. BUT NO, I CANT CONTACT HIM!!! BECAUSE OF YOU IM FUCKING MISERABLE! I CANT EVEN FUCKING STUDY! HOW DO YOU EXPECT ME TO STUDY WHEN IM ALL SAD!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? NOW WHEN I NEED SOMEONE TO LISTEN, THERE'S NOONE THERE BECAUSE I CANT EVEN CONTACT MY FRIENDS BECAUSE YOU TOOK MY HANDPHONE. AND I CANT EVEN SIGN IN MSN. I CANT EVEN TALK TO ANYONE BESIDES MY FUCKING FAMILY AND MY FUCKING DOG! I KNNOW THERE'S GOD, BUT IT JUST DOESN'T MAKE ME FEEL BETTER ALRIGHT. KHAIRI IS NOT ONLY MY BOYFRIEND, BUT HE'S ALSO LIKE MY BEST FRIEND. I CANT BELIEVE YOU JUST MAKE US NOT FRIENDS! ATLEAST IF FRIENDS OKAY RIGHT! ARGH!!!!!! WHATEVER LAH. DO WHATEVER LAH MUMMY. I DONT CARE ANYMORE. JUST RUIN MY LIFE LAH. WHATEVER. I DONT GIVE A SHIT ANYMORE. WHATEVER, DON'T GIVE ME FREEDOM LAH. JUST LET ME BE ALL ALONE! JUST LET ME FUCKING ROT AT HOME! GAH!

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